Season of Waiting

I meant to write last week but got a little busy! The weather here is finally cooling down a bit, and it is AMAZING! It feels so comfortable outside. The sun is warm on our skin, but not unbearingly hot. Lately we've had a cooler breeze because we've had some storms roll through. It even hailed (marble to golf ball sized hail) for like 5 minutes during an intense storm yesterday. It was pretty bizarre! Chase went out of the porch and got pelted with hail balls, and kept yelling that it hurt, but continued to stay on the porch...

I had an interview last week at Banner Good Samaritan Hospital for the Trauma/Surgical ICU. Good Samaritan was named one of America's Best Hospitals this year, is also a Magnet Status hospital, a level 1 trauma center, AND a teaching hospital. GAHHHH!! I want to work at this hospital so badly! The interview went well. I said some good things and could have said other things better. I talked to the nurse recruiter today, and the RN manager said the only thing holding me back was by lack of experience with high acuity patients, and she thought I might do better to start off on a step-down unit like the progressive care unit. The nurse recruiter forwarded my info to the PCU nurse recruiters. The ICU job isn't necessarily out of the picture, but they are interviewing other candidates. So there is still room for God to work, but I have been praying to follow His footsteps and be living in His will, and not my own. My best friend Jenn and I were just discussing how in our culture today, it is so easy to believe that Jesus is Lord or say that we believe it, but it is MUCH harder to follow Him and His will for us. He could call me out of nursing altogether. And I pray I would be obedient!!

Right now I am still on the lookout for jobs, especially PCU jobs at Good Samaritan. But I am still holding out and praying that God can still put me on the Trauma ICU if it is his will! It will be hard if I get the final word that I wasn't offered a position on the ICU because man oh man I wanted to work on that floor SO BADLY. I have such a desire for ICU nursing, and with this job, I would get to cross-train to the trauma room and also be a level 1 trauma ER nurse! But like I said, I'm trying to stay neutral about it, because from a worldly perspective, it doesn't look good.

It's weird to be in a season of waiting without knowing the future. I can't say I've ever been in a season quite like this. I always have had awesome things to look forward to, whether it was soccer, Chase visiting, graduating, marrying Chase, a honeymoon, a move. I am trying to not get caught up in the worldly perspective that says if I'm not being super productive every hour of the day, then I'm lazy and not being diligent. The Lord has already used this time of waiting to refine my heart and draw me closer to himself. I am learning so much, and I also have met some amazing women who love the Lord.

But in the back of my mind, I know that I need to bring in an income. Financially I need to have SOME kind of job by the end of October, or Chase will start looking for a second job, which is ridiculous. He shouldn't have two when I have none. I want to work and bring an income in so badly! I know God knows this need of ours. We want to be good stewards of whatever money He's gifted us with, and spend it how He calls us to. Easier said than done, right? Thank goodness for the Holy Spirit that empowers us to actually be able to follow God!